9:39AM BBT: The Final Three are still sleeping.|
10:02AM BBT: We have WBRB Bubbles for Wakey Wakey.
10:14AM BBT: The feeds return as the HGs begin their last full day in
the BB house.
X and Azah are talking in the Yacht Club bedroom...
Xavier: Do you want to talk? Your face looks exactly how it did last night.
Azah: I don't know where your mind is at but if my opinion matters.
Xavier: It does.
Azah: I'm completely fine and think you should follow through with the deal
you made with him.
10:16AM BBT: Xavier: Do you feel like you got more clarity or is your
gut still mush?
Azah: I feel the same in my decision. Of course, I want to take more time.
But, I have prayed about and thought about it again and again and again.
What I did was I replaced you with Derek X. And I replaced you with Tiff and
with all the things Tiffany did, would I make the same decision?... and !
said no, I would take Big D. Then, I replaced you with Derek X, and I
put...if he did all the things that Derek X did? I said, yeah, I would. So,
at least I feel I have tried as much as possible to not...
Xavier: To be objective...
Azah: Yeah, to be objective and to not be clouded.
Xavier: Mmm Hmm.
Azah: by, whatever. But when I thought about this decision I hadn't thought
about the way I feel about you or any of the conversations we have had the
past few days.
Xavier: I didn't think you would. I never thought our personal relationship
would cloud your judgment.
Azah: I joked before coming in the house, but feel I have made pretty good
decisions that haven't involved men.
Xavier: Is Big D not mad? Am I missing something?
Azah: He is!
Xavier: Because he spoke about that, too. 'The women empowerment.' I was
like we both have penises...we are both men. Either one of us goes, it's a
man sitting in the final two. I get it, one is straight and one is gay. I
don't understand... He was like, nah, it's different.
Azah: I mean, if I cared only about myself this would be a really easy
decision. I would take Big D and I would try to convince you to take me.
10:22AM BBT: Xavier: From a game standpoint, I have thought of
decisions from a logical standpoint but I have also thought from my gut. I
don't regret any of the decisions I've made. I don't regret decisions.
That's life. You have to make decisions. You might have regrets, but that's
the part of life that is beautiful.
Azah: I feel this is a bad decision for me. My next part is having to own
it. So, owing in terms of Big D being upset and owning it as people
understanding it...jury, and honestly, America might view it a certain
way...and other things I've done. I've made a lot of hard decisions in the
game. And understanding how I was wrong with Tiffany. This one is... because
I think it does tap at my insecurities...
Xavier: What do you mean? You said insecurities.
Azah: Um, I wouldn't say it's insecurities but Big D says I'm throwing my
chance away for a man.
Xavier: Oh, OK. That's what everyone is saying because they feel they can
get you to poke at that. But they can't say that I haven't looked out for
your game... or gone against you. They have nothing else, so the only thing
they can go with is something personal. That's literally the only avenue
they have because they try another argument, it doesn't work.
Xavier: All he did was make sure Kyland went home. They are going to try and
poke your insecurities. That's why they bring me in the picture. In this
game, I've done a lot of things. So has he. I have never gone against you.
Neither has he. He has a close relationship with you. So do I. The
difference is, I'm not lording those things over you. If I care about
someone, I'm going to do things for them and not hold it against them.
Azah: That's another thing he told me... he said, you're welcome.
Xavier: See? That's not me. I wanted both of y'all to get here. There's no
point in (holding anything above them) because actions have shown who I'm
loyal to. 'Oh, all the guys are working together.' I sent Kyland home. 'You
would never send Alyssa home over me,' I sent Alyssa home. The two people I
wanted at the end were the two people I felt never had my name in their
mouth. I knew Kyland had. I knew Tiffany had. I think probably even Chaddha
had. It's what I thought I needed to do to help my people, but I'm not going
to be, like Big D, say I could have just taken you out. I'm not about that
shit. If it's someone I care about deeply? I got your back. I don't have to
say that. My actions will show that. I think it's not just because we have a
physical attraction for each other. It's like people can't think we can be
best friends or great friends. I think she is attractive. She thinks I'm
attractive. That doesn't mean we can't come in here and play without a
showmance. People automatically assume that because I didn't want to get
involved... it's just hey, I've said she is one of the two I'm most
attracted to in the house. I just didn't want to take it to that level.
That's the shit that irritates me. That's what they have all done on their
way out the door... a last-minute dig at somebody on their way out. I have
never held anything over you to have you take me to final two. I haven't.
I'm not going to say he hasn't done things. I'm not going to say I haven't
done things. That's just not me. I haven't played the game by guilting
people into things. That's not how I play the game. I just do what needs to
get done. I was HoH. I had some power. I could have used that to set myself
up. But, I said hey, who is it that everyone wants out? And I was OK with
being the...if he wants to be pissed at someone, he can be pissed at me. I
had no reason to get Whitney out, but that's what I did. I'm not NOT going
to be the person my parents raised me to be. That's not me. I do this for my
family. Yeah, like I said. America probably thinks I'm stupid for not
bringing Kyland, but I ask my brother in the other room and say I can give
two shits. I made the decision I made, and I'm sticking to it. I would do it
10 times; 11 times. The opinions of others have never really dictated how I
make my decisions or live my life.
Azah: The people I don't care about have never affected me.
Xavier: I do care about your opinion, but if you have an opinion that is
bringing me down...I mean, what is that opinion (meaning it is not important
if it brings him down). I highly value the opinion of my family but at the
end of the day, my family raised me to make my own decisions.
Xavier tells Azah she needs to make a decision she is good with. He is happy
she prayed on it and will support whatever choice she makes. "Life will go
10:41AM BBT: Xavier: I have to go get something to eat. You gonna be
Azah: Mmm Hmm. Do you plan to let him know where you are leaning?
Xavier: Probably. Do you plan to let him know? I mean I don't plan to do a
lot of talking to him today.
Xavier brings up that Big D keeps pressing her that she has told him to keep
honoring the deal he made (with X) 'Selfishness bothers me. But, that's what
this game does."
Xavier leaves to go get something to eat.
11:05AM BBT: Big D is unloading on Azah in the Yacht Club Bedroom,
convinced he will not be her choice for final two. Azah looks like a scolded
child but hears him out.
11:08AM BBT: Azah: For me, If I do win final three (she means part 3)
and I do have that chance, the easy way is for me to go with the person whom
I feel I would have more of an influence in the jury. That's an easy
decision for me to go home and make $750K. The hard decision is to ask
myself, does that person deserve third? That's hard for me. I feel no matter
where you place, you are going to walk out of here with at least $50K. I
don't know that for him. I can be at complete peace seeing my best friend up
there and a man that I don't think I deserve third.
[What the heck Azah!? ~MamaLong]
11:11AM BBT: Xavier walks in with bagged laundry and interrupts the
conversation. He apologizes, sets his things down, and leaves seeing that
Azah and Derek are having a serious conversation.
Derek: When you said his reason was better than mine. That's what it felt
like. I put in more overtime. I been there for you way longer than when he
popped up. I have protected you in ways that... I can't even go back and
give times and days... but (he rambles on)...the times I jumped in front of
everything for you. But, it hurt me. I made it clear that if I did not have
the deal with Xavier, we would ride off in the sunset, Baby. I could have
just lied and then we wouldn't be having these conversations.
11:30AM BBT: Derek: I would expect this from anyone else but you.
It's alright. We'll see. It does suck that I came this far and I thought my
relationships were going to stick. It's going to be hard for me to recover
from this. Because I feel... It's not you, it's just I feel stupid and
played right now. That's how I feel. I feel like I did so much. And I did it
because I care... like, I really do love this girl. And I'm just sZZZing904iZZZing904ZZZing904tting
here like, damn! I did all that to now at the end when I don't have nothing
and the one person I thought did have my back and the one person that was
like I want a woman to win this game...I really want to win... I just don't
get it. No, especially from a game point of view.
Azah: I hear what you are saying now. I thought at the time... When I asked
you who you would want to sit next to, it wasn't if you win who do you want
to sit next to. If was like, if deals weren't on the table.
Derek: But you didn't say that. If you would have said that, Azah, it was
you. I protected you this whole game. I protected you this whole time. Maybe
I should have voiced this and that. Maybe I should have honored that deal.
But I'm a man of my word. I cried for this man. Maybe it's me. We had a deal
on day one and then here comes Azah. We're on Jokers together... I was like,
I have to protect this girl.
Azah explains to Big D that it is nothing against him, but she doesn't think
Xavier deserves third place. (She makes a lot of compliments on X glorifying
his gameplay). She feels strongly of any of them, it should be her that gets
third place and that's why she thinks X needs to win and take Big D. She
even goes as far as saying that she wouldn't feel comfortable getting this
money over Xavier.
[Can you believe this? Crazy talk! ~MamaLong]
Derek says that he feels they had a miscommunication and he has accepted the
fate, but it will be hard for him to recover. He doesn't know how anyone can
look at the game and make sense of her not taking him to final two.
Azah is sniffling (possibly crying) and heads into the DR wrapped in the
yellow blanket and looking very sad.
11:55AM BBT: In the gym, Derek fills in Xavier on his conversation
with Azah. Derek makes it clear that he disagrees with Azah on her game
decisions and says no one will understand what she is doing. "I just wanted
to voice my opinion. As a friend, I'm hurt. (He states that she was adamant
he honor his alliances) I'm honoring my bonds, but I can't honor you (Azah)
when you are telling me to honor my bonds. I'm not that. That's a whole
other level... If I'm going out, I want to make sure I say the things that I
thought I should have said. I did this, this, this, and that... I already
Xavier: Y'all can have your conversations. I'm not going to take any kind of
12:38PM BBT: Azah heads to the bathroom to shower and get ready
for the day. She talks with Big D but we can't hear because the correct
audio is not on. They are on talking terms, but Derek is continually
Derek: Please don't send me home. I know you are not going to send me home,
Azah. Please don't send home your friend. (he is making light of the
situation and trying to make her laugh... it works)
Azah: I can't with you.
Derek: I'm just telling you the things I hadn't said about how I feel.
1:22PM BBT: Xavier and Derek are playing cards at the table. Azah is
doing her hair in the bathroom.
Azah joins the guys at the table and watches them play cards for a bit.
1:52PM BBT: Sarge: Azah, please go to the Diary Room downstairs.
2:07PM BBT: Azah is out of the DR. She goes through some of her
things in the Yacht Club bedroom then joins the guys at the table.
2:16PM BBT: Azah and Xavier begin playing cards.
Derek: (to Azah) I have been your person. I have been there to hold you. To
Big D gets up and parks on the livingroom couch.
2:54PM BBT: The final three are now in the livingroom. Azah is lying
down under her blanket. Derek is on the opposite couch. Xavier is eating
while talking with them.
2:56PM BBT: Xavier: Are we getting alcohol tonight?
4:00PM BBT: The Final Three have been discussing Azah's role in
the Cookout. Azah says she felt on the outs with the Cookout from the
beginning. Xavier explains it was because of her relationship with Britini
and how personal she was taking Brit being put on the block. [This is
true... Azah just did not handle that well. ~MamaLong]
Azah says it was because every time Brit was put on the block, it was based
on a lie. Xavier explains to her very well that only one person, the target,
had to believe the lie. They were never targeting Britini until it was time
to get rid of the others not in the Cookout.
4:24PM BBT: Azah and Xavier are cuddled up on the couch. Derek F
is hanging out in the coral reef room.
4:42PM BBT: There is nothing going on. Azah and X are still cuddled
on the couch and Big D is hanging out in the coral reef room. He seems very
deep in thought.
4:44PM BBT: Feeds return quickly.
Azah: How are you feeling for tomorrow? Are you nervous?
Xavier: Not super nervous. It's just another competition. What about you?
Azah tells X she is not worrying about herself.
4:46PM BBT: Big D heads to the loo.
4:50PM BBT: Big D is getting a plate of food in the kitchen.
5:43PM BBT: Azah and Xavier are sleeping cuddled up on the couch. Big
D just finished brushing his teeth in the bathroom.
5:50PM BBT: Xavier is back and resumes his Azah-cuddle position.
Azah: I want to know what's on your mind.
Xavier: I just went pee. Other than that, I did not have a thought at the
moment or even an emotion. If you want to talk about something, maybe it can
trigger me (his thoughts) and I can come back to it.
Azah: This is hard. Like I feel like I'm certain at something, but I'm back
and forth. I want to know your thoughts on something.
Azah: I feel like when I signed up for this I knew what I was getting into,
a shot at third, so yeah. Things that happened this past week, it's kinda
hard to not reconsider. I was able to squash some things with Big D this
Xavier: Mm Hm
Azah: If we were down to two, I want to propose to him that third is
something I can be at peace with. But, part two puts you in a different
mindset somewhat. If that makes sense.
X: Mm Hm
Azah: I do want to propose to Big D that your fate is in two people's hands.
But it is very undecided to us, too. With final three, we had an opportunity
to get first or to get third. But, if we asked him, taking deals, taking
relationships, even best friends, off the table, who he would like to sit
next to. No pressure; nothing. If that person wins, you are taking them.
That person is at peace with that... That would give me peace.
X: I see what you are getting at.
Azah: I would be OK. But, I want to know how you feel about that.
X: I feel that would not change things. If you say deals and friendships
aside, I don't think his answer would change.
Azah: I feel he is so disappointed in me.
Xavier: He is still playing the game. He is still fighting.
5:58PM BBT: Xavier: Knowing him the way I do, he is still going to
say me. He doesn't want to lie to you, so he may flip it around. You know?
He is upset, but that's not, you know, either of our faults. We both won a
competition. He didn't. It's not being rude to him. I mean I see what you're
saying (Big D) but she won part 2. If she wins third, she has the right to
do whatever the shit she wants.
Azah: I knew that if I wanted to get to the final two chairs, I would have
to win part three. I was guaranteed third, but if I want to go to final two,
I have to win third (part 3). That's what it was for me.
Xavier: I know. From his perspective, he feels like I win, I take you. You
win, you take me and he gets third. If Big D had won, what would be the
Azah: I would be sad, but I would be...
Xavier: You wouldn't be guilt trippin! He is saying you need to make a
decision. But he wants you to take him. For me, I don't see how he can feel
it is unfair.
Xavier tells Azah that sometimes the way Big D talks it's like neither of
them (X or Azah) would be there if not for Big D. "That's not fair. But if
Azah doesn't take you, you are going to feel some kind of way even though
you didn't have a deal with you. What do you expect?"
[Okay y'all, I need to interject. When X talks with Big D about this, he
does not offer those words at all. He listens to Big D bitch about Azah, but
he does not interject those ideas. He simply talks about the final two he
has with Big D. That's it. Xavier is making Azah believe that he sides with
her when talking with Big D about this situation. Nope! Xavier is trying to
protect his position with Azah just as much, if not more than Big D is.
6:07PM BBT: Xavier goes on to say to Azah that he has shared all the
same sentiments with Derek F that he has told her about Azah earning her
place and deserving the right to make up her own mind if she wins. I have
not witnessed this at all. As Xavier told Azah this morning, he hasn't
spoken much with Big D today. When they did talk, Big D was relaying the
conversations he had with Azah and X was all ears.
6:12PM BBT: Xavier: In both situations, he was expecting me to win
and take him to final two. 'She earned that shit, Dude. You can't say she
didn't earn that.' I'm not trying to downplay. I'm just stating objective
X tells Azah that he confronted Big D on guilt-tripping Azah.
[I did not witness this, y'all. Maybe I missed it, but I do not believe
Xavier at all. ~MamaLong]
6:33PM BBT: The Final Three are getting their weekly COVID tests. It
is currently Xavier's turn.
7:36PM BBT: Xavier invested a lot of time cuddling with Azah and
explaining his game to Azah. She listened intently.
Derek F is playing cards alone at the table with his shades on.
7:45PM BBT: Derek F heads into the Yacht Club bedroom to talk with
Azah: Hey, Boo!
Derek: How is your honeymoon going?
Azah: Honeymoon? I ain't on no honeymoon.
Derek: I'm here to give my pitch.
Derek: I already gave Xavier my pitch. Alright, Azah... I have been with you
since the beginning of this time In-N-Out and tears and tears; cries and
cries; laughing and laughing. I'm at your mercy at this point, and I hope
that with all I have done for you, it has been enough for you to find the
graces in your heart to consider me if you do win.
I hope my resume shows that I have been loyal to you I have kept to all my
words that I said I would do, and I have been a dear friend of yours this
whole entire game. I understand this is a game. I understand everyone has
their personal beliefs and what they think is best. If you find yourself...
if you find yourself looking at the whole entire summer and everything we
have been through, and all the ups and downs and the times I have always
been there and had your back and all the Tiffany... the Tiffany fiascos and
Britini fiasco's and everything, plus more.
I would hope that you would make a consideration and taking me if you do
win. If you don't, I understand. I can't say I'm going to recover easily,
but at some point in my life, I will. And I do care about you, and I'm glad
that I got an opportunity to find a friend in this game because coming in
here I was expecting to make no friends at all. So keep that in mind, and
that's it. I want to just keep it short and sweet; nothing crazy and thank
Derek hugs her and begins crying. He then thanks her again and leave her to
wallow in her own tears.
Azah sits in silence for a bit, rubbing her face and thinking about the
possibility of having to make a tough decision should she win part three of
this final HoH tomorrow.
Her moments of peace do not last long...
7:55PM BBT: Big D enters the Yacht Club bedroom, again.
Derek: You know, I have been in here with you since day 1.
That's all I
can say, you know? I'm here. I have not done anything to jeopardize your
game. I have always supported you. I have followed through. I'm sorry I did
not make the deals you offered me. I just didn't want us to be in a
situation where we coming down to the six where you would have to pick
between like me and Tiffany because you guys had a deal. I'm just telling
you what she said... she said you guys had a final two. Where you would have
to deal with that pain. That's why even when I was on the block I was like
hey it is what it is. I'm not going to be upset. It is what it is.
So I never thought the person I made a deal with and my friend will be at
the very end. Never expected that. So I meant that. If I had no deals, you
and me skipping down the yellow brick road. Absolutely. Like I said, I just
hope you find it take time to think on it. If you've already made your
decision, that's fine. Like I said. I've already stopped with my speech
because I can't even... I can't even think about it because this has torn me
apart a lot. (He begins crying again) Come on Derek! Stay strong.
Okay, so I just wanted to tell you that. I been staying to myself because
I'm trying to process everything... because I wasn't expecting it. I could
see myself getting blindsided by X. I just didn't see myself getting
blindsided by you. So that's why it just; it killed me. But you came in by
yourself. You don't owe me anything. Everything I did, I do not regret. I do
not regret putting myself as a pawn. I do not regret telling people I will
be up as a pawn in order for you not to be a pawn. I do not regret those
things; never have. Do I talk in the heat of the moment? Yeah. Sometimes I'm
NeNe Leakes. We don't have to talk about it anymore. We can just enjoy our
Azah: I'm still struggling with everything. I want to make sure that you
feel... or try to get a perception of where I came from. I knew I signed up
for being third. I knew there was no shot at final two unless I won it for
myself. But, I only have one option... one place to place my bet. Your bests
are placed on two people. It would be so much simpler for me if I could hear
from you where you want to be.
Derek: Azah, listen. If I had the power... if I could. If I had no deals...
Azah: But I know you are saying that same thing to X, too.
Derek: Hold on. I'm not getting with X. I already made that bet day one. I
wanted you to get here. If I did not want you to get here... Your game was
in my hands... and I did not close that door for you.
Azah: Big D, at final five, it's the same thing. It's the same on both ends,
but right now we are here. When you are telling me "I can't believe you are
doing this to me but you also saying "make sure you keep your final two
deal' That's hard for me.
Derek: I'm only having this conversation to make sure we are clear.
Azah tells Big D that she has made a concerted effort to not get in the way
of his deal with Xavier.
8:04PM BBT: Xavier walks into the Yacht Club bedroom saying he is
trying to get his things together.
Azah: Are you OK. Is your eye OK?
Azah tells X that his eye is red. He tells her it's fine. Xavier leaves Azah
and Big D to continue this conversation.
Big D continues repeating all his points and Azah listens. [She is exhausted
by all of this. Me too!]
9:30PM BBT: Derek F/X are playing cards at the dining table while
Azah watches. Derek F thinks he looks like a mess like he's in an insane
asylum (he's certainly driving live feeders crazy).
11:03PM BBT: The card game has broken up. Azah is in the Yacht
Club bedroom. Derek F is sitting in the left Final Two chair as if imagining
what it might feel like). The HGs look to be winding things down for the
10:38PM BBT: X takes a break to visit the bathroom. Derek F
waits for him to return, shuffling the cards. Azah has been painting her
nails while the boys play cards.
11:00PM BBT: It's the last night in the BB House and Derek F and X
are playing cards while Azah watches. It hasn't been announced, but the
feeds will likely come to an end late morning BBT: with a thank you watching
and sign-off by the final three.
11:03PM BBT: The card game has broken up. Azah is in the Yacht Club
bedroom. Derek F is sitting in the left Final Two chair as if imagining what
it might feel like). The HGs look to be winding things down for the night.
11:22PM BBT: Azah and Xavier are talking in the Yacht Club bedroom
about game show hosts that have passed away. They discuss Steve Harvey
(still living). Azah says she really likes Steve Harvey "even though he
wears those cat daddy suits."
Xavier: Steve Harvey suits. I'm like, bruh, these are all for old pimps. Now
one young person can wear these suits. Only old men. Only Kings of Comedy
can wear those suits.
Azah: I forgive you.
Xavier: What did I do to you? I'm sorry!
Azah: You took the movie life (she is joking)
Xavier: Pretending to be Big D "It took me 84 days with you finally and I've
come around to see that that I'm not taking it from you, I just need it for
Azah starts laughing, "I don't know why. Really, I just can't forget that,
and I'm not supposed to be the one to hold grudges"
Xavier: You do. You are on his level now (mocking Big D again) 'Do you know
what I did on Day 12 for you?' What? It's Day 81 and you want me to remember
what you did for me on Day 12? Fuck that shit!
Azah: I can't.
Xavier: I can't with him!
Azah: How are you doing? You are always asking how I'm doing. How are you
Xavier: I'm good. It's been long days. Tomorrow is a big day. It is what it
is. I'm going to go out there and do the best I can. If works out, cool. If
it doesn't, well, that's part of life.
Derek F is getting ready for bed in the bathroom.
Xavier: I don't know. The funny part is, he is counting on me to take him in
any situation, but I still feel I could lose to him. I feel nervous. Not
necessarily nervous in the sense of like Damn! If I lose, it's not just my
family, it's his family, too.
Azah: What do you mean?
Xavier: They have been watching, too. [Implying Derek F's family knows they
had a deal since day one) I could let them down.]
Azah: How do you let them down if you lose?
Xavier: It's just pressure. We have to see how tomorrow's competition goes.
He's like, 'All of Philly is on your back. My mom is on your back.' I get
it, man. It's like fuck my family. [Xavier is tired of Big D always putting
himself and his own family before Xavier's]
Azah: Oh man! Do you think his family hates me?
Xavier: No. None of our families hate you. You are a wonderful woman.
Truthfully, I think America is probably rooting for you.
Azah: Oh, I don't know if America is rooting for me. I don't know what
America is thinking. I think they think...
Xavier: Who cares whatever America is thinking. We played the game to get
here. First, second or third? I'm like, you do not know what that shit in
there is like.
11:30PM BBT: Xavier: Let's say something happened to went out at 6. I think
he feels I wouldn't even be looking out for him. (Xavier says he would have
helped Big D out with his mom because that is the type of man he is.) What
is important is that Big Brother will crown the first African American
winner tomorrow. That's pretty special. One of us will be the first in
history, and that's pretty cool. I'm glad it's one of us three.
11:32PM BBT: In the coral reef room, Big D is applying Neosporin to
Back in the Yacht Club bedroom...
Azah: Oh Lord!
Xavier: Lord, give me strength.
Azah: And that didn't help... Big D is like, 'My mom is counting on you!'
That makes me feel like shit
Xavier: That's just Big D. Don't feel like shit.
Azah: I just feel like I'm a... I just can't help it
Xavier: Don't feel like shit. Everything happens for a reason. It's probably
making for some good TV, and that's what is most important.
Azah laughs and then sighs (this is all still weighing pretty heavy on Azah)
Xavier: It's pressure, but I don't know. I would rather you put that
pressure be on me instead of anyone else. I don't mind it. That's why Big
Brother was like get your ass on that block. Chopping block roulette, let's
see how you like pressure; get your ass up there. 'Okay! Damn!' Then double
eviction, 'Get your ass up there. 'Okay! (pretending to cry) I get it. You
want my ass out. I'm like, damn, I just came to play a game with my
friends... I didn't even know some of them would be my friends. Some of them
pissed me off... Like that mother fucker Britini. I love her, but Damn It!
Those mornings be rough sometimes.' I'm like what the fuck. Damn girl. I
love you, but where do you get it? (he means her energy and how it was
always so extra.) Oh, I can't imagine her as a kid. 'Mommy, I'm up. I can't
sleep! I'm hungry, but my tummy hurts' (pretending to be her mom turning to
her dad) 'Honey, it's your turn.'
Azah: Oh, I get to see her tomorrow.
They joke about the things Britini would eat, "If someone did not cook for
her that was her meal."
Azah: OK, you're right. I just wouldn't look at it.
Xavier: I tried not to look at it, but it would singe my nostrils.
Azah is laughing, "Leave her alone"
Xavier: You sound like Chris Crocker right now, "Leave Britney alone."
11:45PM BBT: In the coral reef room, Big D settles in for the night
and says some nightly prayers, thanking God for his experience. "In this
moment Lord, I'm not reaching out for your help. You have a path for me, and
I will follow it. Please make sure I get back home safe. I just want a safe
flight home. That's all I ask for. I will not ask for green. I'm not that
type of person. Thank you. Just make sure I get back safely home.'
Back in the Yacht Club bedroom, Xavier and Azah are talking about Claire and
how funny she was when she would give her "church hands" They both laugh
over how good Claire was with those church hands. They laugh over Claire's
vacation Bible school stories. They laugh over the Spongebob Forest story.
Xavier, "Kids, today we killed Spongebob for Jesus."
Azah: It was executed terribly (they describe Claire saying holy water was
in the water guns and the ministers chased the Spongebob to cleanse him).
Azah: Claire was like, what the fuck!?!
11:48PM BBT: Xavier and Azah laugh repeating all of the drama Big D
has injected the past few days.
Azah: Am I crazy? He would say stuff and then when I say to him, 'you
said..." and he would be like, I never said that.
Xavier: This damn entitlement! Where do you get that shit? Ain't anyone
entitled to shit in this game. 'But you know, you can't break a deal.' Dude,
you had a deal with Kyland and you broke it. We have all made deals and
Azah: I'm just like, I'm a loyal mother trucker... Cool, but take your shit,
and don't get mad if someone takes it differently. If Tiffany told me, I'm
thinking of taking Big D, I would be sad, but I would be like, OK.
Xavier: Yeah! Thank You!
Azah: Would I be sad? Pissed, probably. But, rationalizing it, if he said,
'I don't think Tiffany should be third.' I'd be like, OK, fine. I got to
sleep on it again tonight.
11:51PM BBT: Xavier: You got a long day tomorrow. We have to sit in a
room tomorrow. Don't let him confuse you. Get some sleep.
Azah: OK. Good night!
The Final Three are all tucked in their beds. This is the first night that
Big D has not slept in the Yacht Club bedroom. I guess he wants to pour one
last teaspoon of salt in what's left of his attempt to slash open Azah's
heart with a jagged-edged guilt knife by denying her his obnoxious snoring
on this final night in the BB23 house.